Down 26.4 pounds!!

That is almost a Mary. :) I have had some good days. We had a double baby shower for two of my nieces on Monday. One is due in August and the other in October. It was a little hard to be there, but I survived. I would have been due right between them in September. I miss my little one, but feel that it happened for a reason and that I will see my baby again.

My sister had also made a ice cream sandwich cake that looked sooo sooo good. I just drooled over my Moms. :) But I survived without having any of it. It has been 3 weeks since my surgery and I have lost 26.4 pounds. I have to think of that when I am having a hard time. One of the draw backs that I am having right now, is that I have no energy. I have been doing more in the house (as in dreaded housework) than I was, so I am using more energy. I have yet to make it to the gym. But Mom and I are going to start on Monday. So we will see if that will give me more energy. Also it has been really hot outside, which drains my energy.

I went out with some friends the other night and had a great time. We went to eat at Cafe Villa (I think that is the name of it) and my friend DramaMomma shared some pulled bbq pork and beans for $3.50 and didn't even eat half of it. It tasted great and stayed down :) I am wanting to go back and get more. That is the cheapest meal that I have had at a restaurant, especially since she paid for it. :) (Thanks DM!!) I was a little afraid of go out to eat, but had a great time with great friends.

Saturday Fun!

We had a great day as a family. We went and saw 'Evan Almighty', which is a great movie. I recommend it to everyone. It has such a great feeling to it. Joe and Bobby both really liked it too, Bobby was laughing a lot. Mary had a hard time sitting still, but eventually fell asleep. The movie reminds you to have faith in God, which we all need reminding.

I have been having a better time handling things. I still have head cravings, but I just remind myself of why I am doing this. The mind is a powerful thing, even though you know that you don't want that candy or treat, your mind keeps on telling you that you need it or that it won't hurt. In my case it will hurt :) by making me sick, by not losing the weight and I do not need it. Food is everywhere, everywhere I turn, every other thought I have is about food. Every special occasion is celebrated with food, every sad occasion there is food. If your having a hard time in life, people bring you food, or tell you that chocolate will solve your problems. Comfort food is in all the commercials, telling you that you have to have this drink or food to be happy. I have had all of it, and I can attest that it will not make you happy in the long run. Just like any drug or alcohol, it will make you feel good for a little while. That is why people go back to it. I believe food is the largest addiction that there is. The diet industry is one of the largest money makers that there is, and most of them will work for a short amount of time. I do believe that Weight Watchers is one of the best out there. They do focus on the emotional part of losing weight. It just was not enough to keep me from cheating. I would sabotage myself all the time. I would have a great week and then rationalize that I could have more the next week.

The surgery tool is giving me the time that I need to work out all those addictive behaviors with food. I now only eat to live and not live to eat. I have been to parties and to movies since the surgery and I still crave those foods, but I know that they are not worth it. It is not worth my health and my happiness. It is not worth it for that small amount of satisfaction that will come from food.

I am starting to get back into normal life now, I do have a little more energy than I had a week or two ago. My clothes are starting to be baggy, not yet big enough to go to the next size down, but soon. I will be starting back to the gym on Monday, so I am looking forward to that.

I am blessed to have so many friends and family supporting me in this adventure. It will be a fun one. It will be hard along the way, but so worth it. I am looking forward to being active with my children and family.

Some of the healthy life styles that I am adopting are:
Not eating after 7pm. (have been doing this)
Drinking at least 64oz of water. (I have been doing about 100oz or more)
Getting 8 hours of sleep. (still working on this)
Walking daily (working on increasing this)

I should get to bed now so I can get enough sleep for church in the morning.
Thank you all for listening, it helps more than you know!

I have been having a very difficult time the last few days. Emotionally I am not dealing with things good. Mainly when it comes to my kids. They are so full of energy and I have none. I am feeling better physically, but still can not do a whole lot. When the kids acted up, I would just get something to eat. Now I can't do that, I actually have to deal with it. I miss my old friend. I read this on someones blog and I thought, this is exactly how I feel. Go here to read it.
http://shrinkingmom.clubmom.com/amazing_shrinking_mom/2006/06/my_backstabbing.html
Different situations, same emotions. But as I got on the scale this morning, it did feel good when I saw that I was down 22.2 pounds. I just have to think that it will get better with time, as I lose more I will gain more energy.

I just need to look at the positives with my kids and my life. To look at my blessings. I will go for now. I need to do something with my kids to let them play. Thanks for listening.

My two Superheros

They have a lot of fun pretending to be superheros. Mary always says batman to the rescue.

Bobby's Big Day

Bobby has been asking me to take off his training wheels for a few days, so I took them off. I told him that I could not help him learn to ride, since physically I can't do that right now. He practiced on his own for a while and in 20 minutes he was riding his bike. He was able to turn corners, go fast, and stop. Now that is all he wants to do. Ride his bike. Here are some pictures of the fun.

YEAH!!

I am down 15.3 pounds. :) That is fun to see.

A lot of people have been asking me what I am eating. So I thought that I would put on what I had to eat yesterday.
Breakfast - 2 oz. of Strawberry Yogurt
Lunch - 2 oz. Turkey(lunch meat) with melted cheese
Dinner - 1 1/2 oz. Chicken and 1/2 oz. of squash
110 oz. water & 4 oz V-8 juice

The amounts will stay the same for the next 4 weeks, but the things that I can eat vary. My food has to be at least 70% protein 30% vegetable.

Hope that helps. I have some pictures of the kids but I will make a new post for them.

Oh Yeah!

I made it so anyone can post. So my family out there that does not have an account can post.
Love ya.