Having Fun

I have been doing pretty good with my diet. I am very hungery though. I have to keep myself very busy, which is good since I need to have my house clean. I can't believe I only have 8 days till surgery. The hospital called today to pre-resigter. I am very excited to be on the losing side of life. I took my before pictures and my measurments yesterday. (thanks mom) The pictures are scary. I am not going to put them on here until I have some after pictures to go with them.

We went and saw Shrek as a family yesterday. It was alot of fun. It is a pretty good movie. Mary did have a hard time sitting still, but she is only 2. :) Bobby really enjoyed the movie. There are a few movies that will be coming out soon that we are excited to see. Fantastic 4 - Harry Potter. I think there is another one, but I can't think of it. The smell of the popcorn was hard to handle though. I did really good and only had 1 small handful. It tasted really good.

I am so grateful for my family and friends and all the support that I have.

1st day of Pre-op Diet

Well let me just start of by saying a huge Thank You to all of the men and women that have fallen in the name of protecting our country. It makes me very blessed to know that we have people that will sacrifice their lives for others, all in the name of freedom. I am turely grateful for the freedoms that we have in this country.

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The 1st day of my pre-op diet was harder than I thought it would be. I was hungery, but that was not the hardest to deal with. It was the emotional hunger that I had to fight all day long. I felt anxious all day. Felt like I needed to be snacking on something, even if I was not hungery. I thought about it every second. Constantaly reminding myself to do something else with my hands. To not say that this is not an addiction is wrong. I am already starting to have withdrawls, I have had a headache all day, and like I said anxious. The only problem with this addiction is that I have to have some food to survive. I know that I can do this. I have to conquear this demon. I will conquer this demon.

Like my quote says "And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." -Anais Nin. I know that the risks of staying overweight far outweigh the risks of this surgery. There is a new show on TLC that started tonight called Big Medicine. It is about bariatric surgery. They follow a father and son surgeron team and their patients. It was very exciting to see and very encouraging to watch. It will be on every Monday night. They follow patients in different stages of the surgery process. One just starting, one right after, and one that has gotten to goal and is getting plastic surgery to remove extra skin. It was a very good show.

I am hoping that this blog will help me get out the feelings that need to surface to deal with this addiction. It has already helped.

Thanks for listening. Have a great night.

Pre-op Diet

I am starting my pre-op diet tomorrow. I will be on 1000 calories a day until surgery. Out of the 1000 calories most of it needs to be protein. I am excited to be on my way. This will start my weight loss journey.

We had a great day as a family today. We went to the park to play and wore the kids out. Mary only lasted a few minutes in the car. Bobby we were able to get home and take a bath, which was greatly needed. He buried himself in the sand and had sand in his hair.

Mary always has alot of fun at the park. Joe took her on a walk around the park on his shoulders to get his workout in. He ran about 1/3 of the way. (with Mary on his shoulders)

I am not sure what Mary was pointing at. She was getting very tied at this point. So was Joe.

Have a great night!!

Protective Parents

We have always been pretty protective parents. Our kids are very active and love to run, as in runaway. We usually never let them out of our sights. We have both come to the conculsion that we need to let them take chances, in that they will learn from there mistakes. Of course we still can not let Mary loose by herself, because she will run away and not stop. Bobby on the other hand we let play outside today while we were inside. A FIRST!! He was playing with one of his friends and had a blast. I didn't have much of a fight in getting him to come in, and he was able to let go of alot of energy. (very needed for our kids) It was fun watching him play. I had to stop myself a few times from telling him not to do something, then relizing that he is just being a normal kid and boy. He was not doing anything dangerous, just having fun. I think that was a huge accomplishment for me, as sometimes I forget to let him play and learn.

I think alot of my problems with Bobby are stemming from my weight. I am so tired all the time that I get onery and short tempered. I can't play with him like he needs. He needs to run and jump and get all of that energy out, or it builds up into mischief. He is a boy that loves to see how things work and how they come apart. He loves to learn everything that he can. He loves to have attention. (Alot like I used to be as a kid) I am looking forward to being that way again.

I need to learn how to breath through the rough moments when I want to tell him to stop, and really think 'is he really doing any harm to himself or others' He is very protective of his sister, but he also is a big bother to her to. Which is a big brothers job.

I think both Joe and me learned alot today. I am very grateful that my kids are the way they are. Even though it is hard alot of the times. They know what they want and they are excited about life. Children have an unconditional love that I am very thankful for. You can screw up and they will still love you. (it might take a few minutes, but they will adore you)

Weight Loss Journey

One of the main reasons for this blog is to help me with my weight loss journey. I will be having Gastric Bypass Surgery on June 8th, and I am very excited for the changes that will be happening in my life. I figured this would be the easiest way to keep everyone posted.

I have gone through almost all of my classes and only have my surgery orientation class left on June 6th. I am really looking forward to using this tool to achieve my goal. HEALTH.

I have been overweight for most of my life. I started gaining weight in Jr. High and went up from there.

I am really looking forward to living life to its fullest.

Some things I would like to accomplish:

• Go on rides with my children. (like DisneyLand & Lagoon)
• Be able to run after my kids and catch them. :)
• Wake up not in pain.
• Go hiking with my family.
• Go swimming with kids and have fun doing it.
• Fit in my van seat belt without the extender.
• Sitting in a lawn chair without worring that I will brake it.
• Going on a bike ride.
• Owning a bike.
• Running a marathon.
• Buying clothes in a normal store.
• To go dancing.

There are soo much more, but it is late and I will list more later.

I can't wait to start my journey!!

My Story

I am starting this blog to help me through my journey in life. To also keep my family and friends updated on the happenings in my family.

For those that don't know me I will give a brief history. :)

I am 30 years old, married to the love of my life Joe (http://averagejoeblogger.blogspot.com/). I am a stay-at-home mother of two wonderful, spirited children, Bobby is 5 and Mary is 2. We have been married for almost 13 years, but as my dh says it seems like 14. I am the youngest of 10. My brothers and sisters say that I am spoiled, my mother always told me that I was just very well loved. But I will agree I AM SPOILED. I have so many blessings in my life (I will list them sometime). I am of the LDS faith (www.lds.org).

I am not a writer, so I hope that this comes across clearly. :)