Monday, May 28, 2007

1st day of Pre-op Diet

Well let me just start of by saying a huge Thank You to all of the men and women that have fallen in the name of protecting our country. It makes me very blessed to know that we have people that will sacrifice their lives for others, all in the name of freedom. I am turely grateful for the freedoms that we have in this country.
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The 1st day of my pre-op diet was harder than I thought it would be. I was hungery, but that was not the hardest to deal with. It was the emotional hunger that I had to fight all day long. I felt anxious all day. Felt like I needed to be snacking on something, even if I was not hungery. I thought about it every second. Constantaly reminding myself to do something else with my hands. To not say that this is not an addiction is wrong. I am already starting to have withdrawls, I have had a headache all day, and like I said anxious. The only problem with this addiction is that I have to have some food to survive. I know that I can do this. I have to conquear this demon. I will conquer this demon.
Like my quote says "And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." -Anais Nin. I know that the risks of staying overweight far outweigh the risks of this surgery. There is a new show on TLC that started tonight called Big Medicine. It is about bariatric surgery. They follow a father and son surgeron team and their patients. It was very exciting to see and very encouraging to watch. It will be on every Monday night. They follow patients in different stages of the surgery process. One just starting, one right after, and one that has gotten to goal and is getting plastic surgery to remove extra skin. It was a very good show.
I am hoping that this blog will help me get out the feelings that need to surface to deal with this addiction. It has already helped.
Thanks for listening. Have a great night.



4 comments:

DramaMomma said...

It is hard. Take strength in knowing that dealing with those fealings after a major surgery really sucks and to know what you are in for is a good thing.

You will do good. You are strong and capable. I have faith in you, you can do this.

I recorded the show yesterday, but have not watched it yet. I will do that soon.

Much Love, Sister.

Tammy said...

You are doing great. I am excited to keep up on your progress! If you ever need to call me. Love you!

Selena said...

Good for you Kristina. I know that your journey is a hard one. But I have faith and confidence in you and know you will succeed. With each passing day, it will get easier. I look forward to hearing about your progress. Love Ya
Selena

annrichey said...

You are loved very much and we all pray for your success...we all have things we need to overcome, you are an inspiration to us all!

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