Exercise...

It feels good to be able to be active. I have been going to the gym at least 4 days a week, the other days I get some sort of exercise, just not at the gym. It actually feels good to have my muscles sore. The only thing I don't care for is getting up at 6am to go. It is nice to get it done with and not have to worry for the rest of the day if I am going to be able to go. I really enjoy going with my Mom and being with her, even though we don't talk a lot while we are there. :)

I am able to walk and jog for 40 minutes and go over 2 miles. Then we do our weights. I am grateful that my body is responding to the work I am doing. I am on a plateau this week, but I know that my body is adjusting to the changes and building muscles.

I have starting counseling sessions, which I hope will help me feel like myself again, without my comfort food. I am excited to find joyful comforts to replace the bad ones. To learn to rely on my Heavenly Father and my family for comfort is exciting.

Well, I have to go get ready to walk Bobby and his friend to school today. It is Green Week at school. Which is safety week. Today is the walking school bus for all the kids, if they want to, which Bobby is very excited for. On the way we will talk about safety issues on the road.

Have a great day!!!

Busy Days

I need to be better at posting. I have had trouble lately getting my thoughts out clearly and haven't felt like I had a lot to say. I have been staying away from home during the day it seems. Helping out a little bit at mom and dad's. I don't know how much help I have been with my kids there. But we got the yard cleaned up some and they got a brand new deck, which Bobby and Mary love to play on. I sometimes feel like I need to apologize for my kids, even though they are just being kids.
My house and my husband has been neglected I feel. I cleaned today and yesterday, but there is still a lot to do. I have be feeling very anxious lately about a lot of things. My house being one of them. It seems that I can't get on top of it. I think I am just being to picky about it. Joe has been working a lot lately since they are moving a lot of things at work. I think we need to go out on a date night soon.

Bobby is enjoying school and I go and help out at least once a week. Mary still wants to go with him every time.

Well, I am almost at 65 pounds. I am feeling good physically. Mom and I are going to the gym every morning at 6:30am except for Saturday and Sunday. We started last Thursday. It feels good to get it done and I don't have to worry about it the rest of the day. The only thing that I don't like, is getting up that early. I try and talk myself out of it every morning. But someone told me, "Is it worth getting up and doing the exercise or would you rather stay fat." I would rather lose a little sleep. :)

That's it for now.
Oh yeah, I got my hair cut short. I will take a picture later and post.

Emotional Rollercoaster.

I have almost made it to 6o pounds!! Physically I am feeling great. Emotionally I am up and down a lot. I am feeling the effects of not being able to go to my comfort friend when I am stressed and that is stressing me out more. I really am missing my old friend right now. It's funny, I see this friend all day long. Every time that I have to fix my family something to eat or when I have to eat, I see it. When I drive down the street, I see it. Have you ever realized how many places there are to eat in one block. It is not that my life is that stressful, it is just the fact that I am not dealing with lives normal stresses very well. The joy of raising kids that are very independent and very strong minded is stressful to me. They take after me, I was just like them. Sorry Mom!! We butt heads a lot, which is my fault. I am taking things to seriously. I need to let things go, which is easier said than done. It does help just writing it down.

Other than this life is going pretty good. Mary is wanting to wear panties and she has stayed dry when she has been wearing them. She pulls down her pants and then tries to run to the bathroom. It is funny to see. I keep on telling her that she needs to run to the bathroom than pull her pants down. We even went up to grandmas with panties on and she stayed dry the whole time.

Bobby has been really into video games. Which is good, it keeps him entertained and out of trouble. It will be nice tomorrow when he is in school. It will give me time to go to the gym.

Thanks for listening!!