Down 26.4 pounds!!

That is almost a Mary. :) I have had some good days. We had a double baby shower for two of my nieces on Monday. One is due in August and the other in October. It was a little hard to be there, but I survived. I would have been due right between them in September. I miss my little one, but feel that it happened for a reason and that I will see my baby again.

My sister had also made a ice cream sandwich cake that looked sooo sooo good. I just drooled over my Moms. :) But I survived without having any of it. It has been 3 weeks since my surgery and I have lost 26.4 pounds. I have to think of that when I am having a hard time. One of the draw backs that I am having right now, is that I have no energy. I have been doing more in the house (as in dreaded housework) than I was, so I am using more energy. I have yet to make it to the gym. But Mom and I are going to start on Monday. So we will see if that will give me more energy. Also it has been really hot outside, which drains my energy.

I went out with some friends the other night and had a great time. We went to eat at Cafe Villa (I think that is the name of it) and my friend DramaMomma shared some pulled bbq pork and beans for $3.50 and didn't even eat half of it. It tasted great and stayed down :) I am wanting to go back and get more. That is the cheapest meal that I have had at a restaurant, especially since she paid for it. :) (Thanks DM!!) I was a little afraid of go out to eat, but had a great time with great friends.

Saturday Fun!

We had a great day as a family. We went and saw 'Evan Almighty', which is a great movie. I recommend it to everyone. It has such a great feeling to it. Joe and Bobby both really liked it too, Bobby was laughing a lot. Mary had a hard time sitting still, but eventually fell asleep. The movie reminds you to have faith in God, which we all need reminding.

I have been having a better time handling things. I still have head cravings, but I just remind myself of why I am doing this. The mind is a powerful thing, even though you know that you don't want that candy or treat, your mind keeps on telling you that you need it or that it won't hurt. In my case it will hurt :) by making me sick, by not losing the weight and I do not need it. Food is everywhere, everywhere I turn, every other thought I have is about food. Every special occasion is celebrated with food, every sad occasion there is food. If your having a hard time in life, people bring you food, or tell you that chocolate will solve your problems. Comfort food is in all the commercials, telling you that you have to have this drink or food to be happy. I have had all of it, and I can attest that it will not make you happy in the long run. Just like any drug or alcohol, it will make you feel good for a little while. That is why people go back to it. I believe food is the largest addiction that there is. The diet industry is one of the largest money makers that there is, and most of them will work for a short amount of time. I do believe that Weight Watchers is one of the best out there. They do focus on the emotional part of losing weight. It just was not enough to keep me from cheating. I would sabotage myself all the time. I would have a great week and then rationalize that I could have more the next week.

The surgery tool is giving me the time that I need to work out all those addictive behaviors with food. I now only eat to live and not live to eat. I have been to parties and to movies since the surgery and I still crave those foods, but I know that they are not worth it. It is not worth my health and my happiness. It is not worth it for that small amount of satisfaction that will come from food.

I am starting to get back into normal life now, I do have a little more energy than I had a week or two ago. My clothes are starting to be baggy, not yet big enough to go to the next size down, but soon. I will be starting back to the gym on Monday, so I am looking forward to that.

I am blessed to have so many friends and family supporting me in this adventure. It will be a fun one. It will be hard along the way, but so worth it. I am looking forward to being active with my children and family.

Some of the healthy life styles that I am adopting are:
Not eating after 7pm. (have been doing this)
Drinking at least 64oz of water. (I have been doing about 100oz or more)
Getting 8 hours of sleep. (still working on this)
Walking daily (working on increasing this)

I should get to bed now so I can get enough sleep for church in the morning.
Thank you all for listening, it helps more than you know!

I have been having a very difficult time the last few days. Emotionally I am not dealing with things good. Mainly when it comes to my kids. They are so full of energy and I have none. I am feeling better physically, but still can not do a whole lot. When the kids acted up, I would just get something to eat. Now I can't do that, I actually have to deal with it. I miss my old friend. I read this on someones blog and I thought, this is exactly how I feel. Go here to read it.
http://shrinkingmom.clubmom.com/amazing_shrinking_mom/2006/06/my_backstabbing.html
Different situations, same emotions. But as I got on the scale this morning, it did feel good when I saw that I was down 22.2 pounds. I just have to think that it will get better with time, as I lose more I will gain more energy.

I just need to look at the positives with my kids and my life. To look at my blessings. I will go for now. I need to do something with my kids to let them play. Thanks for listening.

My two Superheros

They have a lot of fun pretending to be superheros. Mary always says batman to the rescue.

Bobby's Big Day

Bobby has been asking me to take off his training wheels for a few days, so I took them off. I told him that I could not help him learn to ride, since physically I can't do that right now. He practiced on his own for a while and in 20 minutes he was riding his bike. He was able to turn corners, go fast, and stop. Now that is all he wants to do. Ride his bike. Here are some pictures of the fun.

YEAH!!

I am down 15.3 pounds. :) That is fun to see.

A lot of people have been asking me what I am eating. So I thought that I would put on what I had to eat yesterday.
Breakfast - 2 oz. of Strawberry Yogurt
Lunch - 2 oz. Turkey(lunch meat) with melted cheese
Dinner - 1 1/2 oz. Chicken and 1/2 oz. of squash
110 oz. water & 4 oz V-8 juice

The amounts will stay the same for the next 4 weeks, but the things that I can eat vary. My food has to be at least 70% protein 30% vegetable.

Hope that helps. I have some pictures of the kids but I will make a new post for them.

Oh Yeah!

I made it so anyone can post. So my family out there that does not have an account can post.
Love ya.

Kids are Home

Well the kids got home yesterday at about 2. Joe spent a couple hours playing with them, he took them on a walk around the block and we all played UNO. Joe's mom stayed at cleaned up the house and did laundry. She also took the kids over to the park to play. I am very blessed to have her in our life. She helps out so much. We got Mary to sleep and then she left to go home.

This morning has been interesting. I have the kids by myself, kinda, Joe is upstairs asleep, so I can always get him if I need. It hasn't been to bad. Mary did kick me in the tummy which hurt pretty bad. She didn't mean to and she was very sorry. Bobby has been kinda of ornery, but is acting better now that he has had something to eat.

I got on the scale this morning and I was down 10.5 pounds since my surgeon consult. Yeah me! I feel pretty good, still taking it easy, but doing more every day. I was able to get down about 74 oz. of water yesterday, which is way good. I had 2oz. of tomato soup with cheese on top for dinner last night and it tasted wonderful. And it all stayed down. :)

I haven't been hungry, but I have had the head hunger, which right now I am dealing with pretty good, since I know that it will make me sick if I have anymore than I am having now.

I am going to go to the support meeting tonight, which should be fun. My Mom is going to drive me down. I can drive if I need to, I haven't been on any pain meds since Saturday night.

Have a wonderful day and enjoy every minute!

I'm Home

Well I am home. I came home on Saturday night about 8pm. I surgery went great, only took about 45 minutes and all was well. My surgeon said the pre-op diet worked great and that my liver was very small. I woke up fine from surgery. Sunday was rough, I felt like I had been beat up with a bat. All my muscles were sore. I had great nurses all through out my stay.

I haven't got on the scale since the day of surgery, I have been waiting until all the air is out of me and all the I.V. fluids.

I feel pretty good today. I have taken a couple walks outside that felt pretty good. I will see my kids tonight, which is good, I miss them. Joe is really missing them. I will post more later. I am going to go rest now.

Thanks for all the prayers and support.

The Day Before

Well it is the day before the big day. I am excited and nervous. I went yesterday and had all the pre-op done with another couple of classes. My mom went with me which was great to have her there to support me.

We have to be at the hospital by 12:00 tomorrow. I am not to nervous or scared about the surgery itself, I am nervous about the emotions that will follow. I will be going to counseling to learn how to handle my addiction. I need to re-learn how to deal with all of my emotions. I am excited to go through this journey and I am very happy that I have the support of most of my family and friends.

I just started drinking the nasty drink to clean my system out. I forgot have bad it is. I have had a lot of emotions running through my head today. Excitement for my new life. Scared for all the changes that will happen. Happy for all the changes that will be happening. Anger for some reactions from people. Blessed for all of the support and love from my family and friends. Sad to be losing a friend (food). And more that I can think of.

Bobby had preschool graduation on Tuesday night, which was a lot of fun. He did great on all the songs and poems. He also did a poem with two other kids. He was the only one doing it though. He did an excellent job. It was cute. Here are some pictures from graduation.





























I will post more when I am able. Have a great night and may you have great dreams!!

Oh! I want to thank my Daddy, Kelly and Brandon for coming over tonight and giving me a blessing. I really appreciate it. It helped a lot. Love you guys. Kandra, you have a great hubby. :)

opps!

It shows how tired I am, I can't spell ornery. I had to look it up. :) Sorry

Onery & Tired

The pre-op diet is going ok, except for the fact that I am very onery and very tired. I have no energy whats so ever. I have been trying to keep my cool with my kids and with my hubby, but it is very hard. My kids have sooo much energy and are always busy getting into things. I know it will be this way for awhile, even after the surgery for my body to get used to it.

I am still very excited for the surgery. It is less than a week away. I have a lot going on in the next few days that it will make it go by fast. I am still trying to get my house in order, which I think is a losing battle. I spend some time upstairs cleaning and the kids tear apart the downstairs. Which is ok, they are kids.

Enough complaining here are some funny things that have happened lately. I was in the kitchen the other day doing dishes and Mary had been quiet for awhile. (which means trouble) Joe came downstairs and she had just come out from behind the couch. She had purple all over her face, clothes and the rest of her. Joe asked her what she was doing. She said, "I putting on lipstick". She had taken a stick of purple sunscreen and put it everywhere, even in her hair. It was quite a site.

Both of my kids always have to be right. For instance: When Bobby was younger he would tell us that a fly was a bee. We would tell him that it was a fly and he would tell us it was a beefly.
Well, Mary told me that I had a pimple on my arm. I told her that it was a bruise. She told me that it was a pimple bruise. It is funny on what they will come up with.

Bobby has been telling us some cute jokes. Here is his favorite so far. What do you call a fish with two knees? A tuney fish.

I gave Bobby a hair cut the other day, which is a first for me. I was a little nervous. I will take a picture of it and put it up. I think I did a pretty good job. It is really short. And he loves it.

I think I will go to bed now, but it has helped me get some emotions out on here. I am an emotional eater, and I have been wanted to eat all day. Yeah for me, I kept to the 1000 calories. Good night all!