My baby's birthday!

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My baby is three years old. I can't believe it has been three years already. She has been so much fun to have around. We had a little party for her and she had a lot of fun. We started to sing happy birthday to her and she started to hide and pout. She does not like to have that much attention on her. We then had cake and ice cream. She picked out her cake, but didn't eat any of it. She liked the ice cream though. Then she opened her presents. She had fun with everything she received.

Aunt Tara braided her hair, which is an accomplishment in of itself, and I had to take pictures of them. I love her smile. She likes to have her picture taken, if she can she the picture after.

I would like to thank the loving support team that I had at her birth. You all are wonderful people to have in our lives. Thank you.

Mary, you are my little sunshine. You always have a smile to give and are a joy in my life. Thank you for coming into our little family. We all love you very much.

Christmas Fun!

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We always open Christmas P.J.s on Christmas Eve. This year I added a throw and a stuffed animal, which they loved. We read the Christmas Story and a whole bunch of other Christmas books. Bobby fell asleep quite fast, Mary I had to work on.
We had to wake the kids up at 9:00 on Christmas to open presents, they loved everything that they received. Then we went and spent the rest of Christmas with family. We all had a lot of fun. Hope yours was enjoyable.

Christmas Picture

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all! I am so grateful for all of my friends and family. Love always, Kristina, Joe, Bobby & Mary.

6 month pictures!

I have lost 105 pounds and have gone from size 26/28 4x to 16/18 XL clothes. I am feeling great. Thanks for all the support from everyone.
Love Ya!

Goodbye Common Sense.

I got this from a friends blog.

My parents told me about Mr. Common Sense early in my life and told me I would do well to call on him when making decisions. It seems he was always around in my early years but less and less as time passed by.Today I read his obituary. Please join me in a moment of silence in remembrance. For Common Sense has served us all so well for so many generations. Obituary Common Sense Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, Common Sense, who has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape.He will be remembered as having cultivated such valuable lessons as knowing when to come in out of the rain, why the early bird gets the worm, why life isn't always fair, and how, on occasion, maybe it was my fault.Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies (don't spend more than you earn) and reliable parenting strategies (adults, not children are in charge).His health began to deteriorate rapidly when well intentioned but overbearing regulations were set in place. Reports of a six-year-old boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate; teens suspended from school for using mouthwash after lunch; and a teacher fired for reprimanding an unruly student, only worsened his condition.Common Sense lost ground when parents attacked teachers for doing the job they themselves failed to do in disciplining their unruly children. It declined even further when schools were required to get parental consent to administer aspirin, sun lotion or a sticky plaster to a student; but could not inform the parents when a student became pregnant and wanted to have an abortion.Common Sense lost the will to live as the Ten Commandments became contraband; churches became businesses; and criminals received better treatment than their victims. Common Sense took a beating when you couldn't defend yourself from a burglar in your own home and the burglar can sue you for assault.Common Sense finally gave up the will to live, after a woman failed to realize that a steaming cup of coffee was hot. She spilled a little in her lap, and was promptly awarded a huge settlement.Common Sense was preceded in death by his parents, Truth and Trust; his wife, Discretion; his daughter, Responsibility; and his son, Reason. He is survived by three stepbrothers; I Know my Rights, Someone Else is to Blame, and I'm a Victim.Not many attended his funeral because so few realized he was gone.

100 POUNDS!!!!!!

I have lost 101 pounds! It has almost been 6 months and I have lost 100 pounds. I have lost a person! I am feeling great, I am able to run and still be able to breathe. I will post pictures next week for my 6 months.


I have a part-time job for the next three weeks, so I might not post very often. I am taking care of 4 month old twins. A boy and a girl. They are very cute and a lot of fun to see them smile. It has also showed me how hard it is to have twins, and I don't even have them for 24hours.

Have a great night.

Saying Thank you to our Troops!

If you go to this web site you can send a card of thanks to our troops. It only takes a couple of minutes.

Let's Say Thanks

Bobby's Thankful List

Bobby had to do this for homework. He told me everything that he is thankful for.

Mommy, Daddy, my sister, me, Aspyn, friends, Heavenly Father, Jesus, My Grandmas, Parks, My Family, My house, Food, All Holidays, My bed, My class, Mrs. White, church, clothes, my fish, water, teadybears, homework, learning, my health, snow, rain, my bones, daddy's work, toilets, our van, table to eat on, chairs, our money, plants, love, happiness, dirt, fire, Christmas, my bike, rocks, my scooter, baths, bags to carry things, cups, everyone, I am thankful for everything!

It makes me happy to know that he is thankful for soo much. Thank you Bobby.

Thanksgiving!!

Things that I am thankful for:
*My family *My husband *My kids *My parents
*Our health *My weight loss *Gastric Bypass Surgery
*Music *Friends *My Surgeon *Our House *Joe's job
*Computers *Sleep *Warmth *The Gospel *Being a SAHM
*Strength *Motherhood *Our Van *My Grandma Randall
*Scrap booking *Cameras *iPods *Books *Learning

I know that there is plenty more to be thankful for, but it is late and I am having a hard time thinking. I am so grateful for my family and all that they do for us. My parents are so loving and giving. My Daddy has been sick the last few days with a blood clot, and it makes me so grateful that I have him around. I do not know what I would do without him in my life. He is one of the nicest, sweetest people around. He would do anything for you. He always has a friend no matter where he is. If he doesn't know anyone, he will, and have a life long friend in a few minutes. I love him with all my heart and am so thankful that he had the guts to ask my mom out on a date. And that I came along 13 months after they got married. He has always worked so hard to give us the things that we needed. I am very proud to call him my Daddy. Love you Dad.

WOW moment

Today I went to listen to my niece give her report on her mission. Which she did an excellent job. After the meeting I went to say hi to the rest of my family. I went up to some of my older nephews (in their teens) and gave them a hug and a kiss on the cheek, which is very normal in our family. My sister was standing right there, and later she told me that my nephews asked her who I was after I left. They did not recognize me. They thought it was weird that someone they did not know came up and hugged them and kissed them.

That made my day. I also received a lot of compliments on how great I looked. It made me feel really good about the progress I have made. I guess 97 pounds makes a difference. :)

Christmas Giveaways!

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5 Month Pictures

New Hair.

I had my hair highlighted and now I have contacts. Do I look any different? I have reached 95 pounds. I will put up my 5 month pictures as soon as I take them. :) Everything else is going good. We have parent/teacher conference tomorrow with Bobby, I will let you know how that goes.
Have a great night!

Absent!

Is what I have been here on this blog. Sorry. I have been busy with life and haven't been home to much. Life has been pretty good, emotionally I am doing really good. I am working out a lot of issues that have been coming up. Physically I am doing great. I have been on a plateau, which is hard to handle, but I know that my body needs to get used to the weight loss. It is finally going down again. I am almost to 90 pounds lost. I will put up pictures next week.

I have contacts now, so I look different without my glasses.

Some of the emotional issues are pretty hard to get over. Like feeling the need to eat in private, or wondering if people are looking at you when you eat. I still think people are thinking I shouldn't be eating, even when I am only eating 3-4 oz. of food. I realize that most people are not thinking like that, but it is hard not to think about it. But it is getting easier.

Halloween was fun. We walked from my Mom's house down and around our house. So when walked about 2 miles. Mary was very tired when we got home and fell asleep pretty fast. It felt good to be able to walk that far without getting tired. I will post a picture of the kids later.
That's all for now. Have a great day!

4 Months!

Before 4 Months

I've hit 31!!!

I am now 31 years old! I don't feel that old most of the time, sometimes I feel very old. I had a great day yesterday. I didn't do anything special, it was just a good day.

I have also hit 70 pounds, which feels great! I am exercising at least four days a week which is hard, but feels good too.

I had a great weekend with friends and family. First I went to the Scrapbook Expo on Friday and Saturday and had a great time. Then went to Idaho for a baby blessing and saw family.

I will take pictures next week for my four months and post them. Then you can see my haircut, if you have not seen it yet.

Have a great day!

Exercise...

It feels good to be able to be active. I have been going to the gym at least 4 days a week, the other days I get some sort of exercise, just not at the gym. It actually feels good to have my muscles sore. The only thing I don't care for is getting up at 6am to go. It is nice to get it done with and not have to worry for the rest of the day if I am going to be able to go. I really enjoy going with my Mom and being with her, even though we don't talk a lot while we are there. :)

I am able to walk and jog for 40 minutes and go over 2 miles. Then we do our weights. I am grateful that my body is responding to the work I am doing. I am on a plateau this week, but I know that my body is adjusting to the changes and building muscles.

I have starting counseling sessions, which I hope will help me feel like myself again, without my comfort food. I am excited to find joyful comforts to replace the bad ones. To learn to rely on my Heavenly Father and my family for comfort is exciting.

Well, I have to go get ready to walk Bobby and his friend to school today. It is Green Week at school. Which is safety week. Today is the walking school bus for all the kids, if they want to, which Bobby is very excited for. On the way we will talk about safety issues on the road.

Have a great day!!!

Busy Days

I need to be better at posting. I have had trouble lately getting my thoughts out clearly and haven't felt like I had a lot to say. I have been staying away from home during the day it seems. Helping out a little bit at mom and dad's. I don't know how much help I have been with my kids there. But we got the yard cleaned up some and they got a brand new deck, which Bobby and Mary love to play on. I sometimes feel like I need to apologize for my kids, even though they are just being kids.
My house and my husband has been neglected I feel. I cleaned today and yesterday, but there is still a lot to do. I have be feeling very anxious lately about a lot of things. My house being one of them. It seems that I can't get on top of it. I think I am just being to picky about it. Joe has been working a lot lately since they are moving a lot of things at work. I think we need to go out on a date night soon.

Bobby is enjoying school and I go and help out at least once a week. Mary still wants to go with him every time.

Well, I am almost at 65 pounds. I am feeling good physically. Mom and I are going to the gym every morning at 6:30am except for Saturday and Sunday. We started last Thursday. It feels good to get it done and I don't have to worry about it the rest of the day. The only thing that I don't like, is getting up that early. I try and talk myself out of it every morning. But someone told me, "Is it worth getting up and doing the exercise or would you rather stay fat." I would rather lose a little sleep. :)

That's it for now.
Oh yeah, I got my hair cut short. I will take a picture later and post.

Emotional Rollercoaster.

I have almost made it to 6o pounds!! Physically I am feeling great. Emotionally I am up and down a lot. I am feeling the effects of not being able to go to my comfort friend when I am stressed and that is stressing me out more. I really am missing my old friend right now. It's funny, I see this friend all day long. Every time that I have to fix my family something to eat or when I have to eat, I see it. When I drive down the street, I see it. Have you ever realized how many places there are to eat in one block. It is not that my life is that stressful, it is just the fact that I am not dealing with lives normal stresses very well. The joy of raising kids that are very independent and very strong minded is stressful to me. They take after me, I was just like them. Sorry Mom!! We butt heads a lot, which is my fault. I am taking things to seriously. I need to let things go, which is easier said than done. It does help just writing it down.

Other than this life is going pretty good. Mary is wanting to wear panties and she has stayed dry when she has been wearing them. She pulls down her pants and then tries to run to the bathroom. It is funny to see. I keep on telling her that she needs to run to the bathroom than pull her pants down. We even went up to grandmas with panties on and she stayed dry the whole time.

Bobby has been really into video games. Which is good, it keeps him entertained and out of trouble. It will be nice tomorrow when he is in school. It will give me time to go to the gym.

Thanks for listening!!

First Day of Kindergarten!

It's been such a long, long time!

Not that long, but I liked the title. I just realized it has been 10 days since I last posted. Life has been busy. I have almost lost 55 pounds, hopefully by tomorrow I will have that .1 pound to make it 55. My goal is to have 60 pounds gone by Sept. 8. I will take more than that though. :)

I am feeling really good, I do have a small cold right now, but nothing major. The kids were so kind to give it to me. I told Bobby that he needs to be all better before Wednesday when he starts school. He does fine during the day, it is at night when he does his coughing. I still can't believe he is starting school. He is very excited.

We had are pictures taken on Saturday by Sam at Memory Park. She was great! She was very patient with the kids and we had a lot of fun. I will post some of the pictures when we get them. While she is building her portfolio, she is only charging $25 for a 1 hour photo shoot with up to 4 people. She also does fantastic Wedding photos. Mary wouldn't smile pretty much the whole time so, we will have serious pictures of her. :) Over all both kids did good. Thanks Sam!!

Emotionally Joe says I have been very touchy and taking things way to personally. Which I have been, but I am not sure why. Maybe because I am still tired a lot of the time. I am working on it. I am praying all the time to have patience with others. Trying to have patience with my kids. He has been great with the kids. We have starting to read scriptures almost every night, which is nice to get the kids to settle down. We have turned the TV off. We will have a movie night once a week or on special occasions. That and Bobby can earn TV or a movie. We were just having too many fits over TV. It was becoming too important.

I will try and post more often. Thanks for reading! :)

Why do I blog?

I was tagged by Tammy, thanks! I started this blog to keep a journal of my weight loss journey. To help me get things out of my head, and to help process it all. I like to keep all my family in touch with how we are all doing. And maybe in the process help someone else on this journey. I really enjoy keeping my thoughts and feelings down here to help me and others.
Thanks for reading.

Now I must tag:
Regina
Michelle
Joe
Camille

WOW moment!!

I fastened my seat belt in my van without the extender!!!! That is the first time since we have got the van 3 years ago. It is really tight, but it fastens. Small accomplishment, but it is something.

Week without Joe :(

Joe has been gone since Friday morning. He flew out to Ohio to help his brother move out to Idaho. We are excited to have them be a lot closer. They should be home late tonight, which is good. I do not like being a single mom. We have been very busy this week. We have had Joe's Dad and family out to visit from Minnesota. They have helped me with the kids while Joe has been gone. We have had a lot of fun with them. We went to a family reunion on Sunday, the kids had a lot of fun with cousins. It was fun to see family that we haven't seen in a year.

I have been doing Joe's paper route since Saturday. Before when I have done the papers it has taken about 2 hours to do all the papers. Now I can do the same amount of papers in 1 hour and 10 minutes. I jogged up to each house and back to the van. Then getting in and out of the van, I have to step up and down. It does feel good to be doing it, but I do not like waking up that early to do them. I will be glad when Joe is back and doing them. It makes me very grateful for my husband and how hard he works for us. This is the first time that he has been gone away from the kids more than a day or two. I am very, very grateful for my family members for helping me out this week.

On another subject: It is way too hot. I am sure looking forward to fall and winter. It has been in the 100's all week. It is so hard to get cooled off and to get enough water in. We need some rain badly. Hopefully it cools off soon, the heat is so draining.

Here is to everyone, hope you can stay cool during the hot summer days.

2 months!!

The picture on the Left is right before surgery and on the right is 2 months out. Down 45.4 pounds. 13 inches off my waist. Over 60 inches lost all over my body. Down from 28/26 to 22/24.

Kindergarten Days!

We just went this morning to register Bobby for Kindergarten. He is very excited to go. I asked him if was scared at all, and he said No Way! School starts on August 29. I am excited but sad, my baby boy is growing up. Everyone we met there thought that he was going into first or second grade.

He has grown 4 inches in the last 4 months, hopefully he slows down a little bit. He is going to be as tall as his Daddy. Which is good.

Mary thinks she can do anything Bobby does. Bobby has another loose tooth and Mary thinks hers are loose too. She asked Joe last night to pull her tooth out. :) Won't be long until Mary is starting kindergarten.

What kind of house do you want to be?

My friend wrote a great story. Go here to read it.

5 Minutes for Mom

This is a great site, 5 Minutes for Mom, they have lots of great articles and a lot of fun contests. Go on over and visit. You can also promote your at home businesses or your blog.

My Celebrity Look Alikes

40 Pounds

40 pounds is the average weight of a 4-year old boy.

How Much Fuel Is That?

To lose that amount of fat would mean to burn 140,000 calories or 585,760 KiloJoules! That is the equivalent of 4.53 gallons of gasoline. Humans, however, are far more efficient than cars, getting about 912 "miles to the gallon". If you could dump this many calories into the tank of a Honda Civic, you would be able to drive it about 154 miles before running out of gas!

Let's see how your goal would convert to other forms of fuel. 140,000 calories is equivalent to:

• 4.53 gallons of gasoline, or
• 50.04 pounds of coal, or
• 69.44 pounds of oven-dried wood, or
• 6.13 gallons of propane

This amount of energy would ...

• Brew about 391 pots of coffee, or
• Light a 60-watt light bulb for 2,712 hours ( 113 days = 0.33 years)

Cutting 140,000 calories is the same as saying "no" to:

• 1,750 apples, or
• 1,400 bananas, or
• 8,235 cups of cabbage (whew!), or
• 966 baked potatoes, or
• 1,750 large eggs, or
• 1,167 cups of 2% milk, or
• 101 pounds of ground beef, or
• 1,609 glasses of wine, or
• 433 Snickers bars, or
• 583 Clif Bars ( 778 Luna Bars), or
• 1,007 cans of Coke, or
• 824 pints of Guinness beer, or
• 285 Big Macs, or
• 272 Quarter Pounders with Cheese, or
• 200 Whoppers, or
• 424 Subway 6" Oven Roasted Chicken Breast sandwiches, or
• 824 Taco Bell crunchy tacos, or
• 596 slices of pepperoni pizza from Pizza Hut

What it Takes to Burn 140,000 Calories

To burn 140,000 calories, a 190 pound male would have to:

• Backpack for 232 hours (10 days) nonstop, or
• Walk for 536 hours (22 days) at 3 mph straight, or
• Walk 1,609 miles (1,006 kilometers), or
• Bike for 406 hours (17 days) at 10 mph, or
• Bike 4,058 miles (2,536 kilometers), or
• Play basketball nonstop for 223 hours 9 days), or
• Play billiards for 648 hours (27 days), or
• Go bowling for 541 hours (23 days), or
• Stay on the golf course for 406 hours (17 days), or
• Spend 180 hours (8 days) playing competitive football, or
• Jump rope for 171 hours (7 days) straight!

You would have to walk the length of England about 2.73 times to burn 140,000 calories.

How many pounds have you lost and what does it really mean? Check here!

I've Hit 40!!

Pounds that is. It feels good to be at this stage. I am so thankful for the chance that I had to have this surgery. It is a great tool to have to get this weight off. I tried some food that I used to love, it was chicken and beef from my old favorite restaurant and it did not taste good at all. Which is good I guess, that way I won't be tempted to eat there. My new favorite food it avocado and bbq chicken and pork. I can still go out to eat with family and friends, my choices are just limited.


I am excited to see what the future has to offer me. I am thinking of going back to school to become a massage therapist. It is something that I can do from home to earn some extra money. It is something that I have always been interested in. I am also thinking of doing medical records from home. I will have to take some new classes on that, but should be able to do it fast.

Thanks for listening :)

18 minute mile

I walked a 18 minute mile at the gym yesterday, which is the best that I have done since before high school. I walked for 35 minutes on the treadmill then I did my upper body weights. Today I am cleaning my house, which is taking a lot of my energy. Kids room is done, now on to my room.

Fun Contest

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Fishing Around!

We had a lot of fun fishing with my Dad. Bobby reeled in his first fish. That is the only bite we had. It was very hot and the water was down so it wasn't the perfect conditions, but we will go out again soon. Mary had fun, she kept putting her fishing pole down and roaming.

Thank you Dad for taking us!

Some Goals

I wanted to jot down some of my goals. I have always been told if you don't write them down, then they are only dreams. So here goes.

*Go to gym in the mornings six times a week.
*Drink all my water each day. (at least 80 oz)
*Go to bed earlier.
*Spent more time playing with my kids.
*Say my daily prayers.
*Read scriptures daily.
*Watch less TV.
*Not yell at my children.
*Keep my house clean.
*Teach my children responsibility.
*Teach Bobby how to read.
*Spent one on one time with Joe. (talking) :)
*Get house organized.
*Keep daily food dairy.
*Smile and say Hi to someone new everyday.
*Save money.
*Get out of Dept.
*Become a Massage Therapist.
*Tell family that I love them everyday.
*Read a new book each month.

So here goes. I guess I should get to bed soon, so I can get up at 6:20 and go to the gym. :) Bobby, Mary and I are going fishing tomorrow with my Dad. I will post pictures.

Win a Blog design!!

I entered here:

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Happy Anniversary Joe!

It was our 13th Anniversary yesterday. We had a nice day with the kids, then we dropped them of at my parents house. We went to Barnes and Noble and spent an hour there just looking around. It is amazing how much you see when you are not chasing kids around the store. We then went and saw Live Free or Die Hard, which was a fun movie. The kids were going to sleep at Grandmas house, but Bobby wanted to come home. Mary was already asleep so that was nice. All in all it was a great day.

It does not seem like it has been 13 years. We have been through some tough times through out the years, but we have always worked through them. We have had some wonderful, exciting times too. We have two wonderful kids, that keep us very busy. We now have the gospel in our lives, which has brought us closer as a family.

I am looking forward to the next 13 years and more. I love you with all my heart and soul.

More fun from the Reunion

Reunion Pictures

Closet Cleaning

I cleaned out my closet. I had to call my Mom and Dramamomma to get some courage to get rid of my winter clothes that will not fit me in the winter. I also went through all the clothes that Dramamomma had given me when she lost all of her weight, and got rid of the things that I know that I wouldn't wear. I also organized all my clothes.

I am a size small up on top and smaller on the bottom, but not enough to go to the next size. It is fun to get rid of so much, but also scary. I know that I will lose the weight, but I do have it in my mind that I won't lose anymore. With every diet I have been on, I have gained the weight back. I know with the surgery tool, that I will not. I have already changed some many bad habits. I still struggle with head hunger, but it is not worth it to give in to it.

I do not enjoy eating anymore. It is now a chore to eat, I eat to survive. My tastes buds have changed too. My biggest treat right now is tomato juice and sugar-free Popsicles every so often. My energy is better but I still do not have a lot of it. I am going to the gym at least three times a week, and that is feeling good.

Thanks for the courage Mom and Dramamomma!! It feels good to get rid of all of the big clothes.

Family Reunion

We got back yesterday from my family reunion up in Idaho. We went to the May Family Ranch
, it was a lot of fun. We 132 people there. 35 from just my family, 25 adults and 15 kids. My Grandma had 6 of her siblings and there families there out of 12, 10 are living. I t was a lot of fun getting to know my cousins again and see some that I have not seen in years.

They had a 100 foot home made water slide that used water from a creek. Bobby was on that thing from the moment we got there till Saturday night. He would have been on it longer if we would have let him. Mary didn't want to go down unless me or Daddy went, but neither one of us brought a swimming suit. So she had fun in the little wadding pool, the water was very cold since it water mountain spring water.

Food wise, I was able to eat what was fixed. I had brought up my own food just in case they didn't have anything that I could eat, but didn't eat most of it. It was hard when they were making smores, but I lived.

All in all it was great. Five of my sisters were there and 1 brother and A LOT of kids. Back to the daily living and a lot of wash. I will post some pictures later.

Some more fun tests

Your Famous Movie Kiss is from Gone With The Wind

"Great balls of fire. Don't bother me anymore, and don't call me sugar."

What Famous Movie Kiss Are You?

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain. People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

Your Theme Song is Beautiful Day by U2

"Sky falls, you feel like It's a beautiful day Don't let it get away" You see the beauty in life, especially in ordinary everyday moments. And if you're feeling down, even that seems a little beautiful too.

What's Your Theme Song?

What Superhero am I?

Your results:
You are Superman

Superman 80% Robin 70% Spider-Man 70% Catwoman 55% Supergirl 52% Wonder Woman 42% Green Lantern 40% Batman 40% Iron Man 40% The Flash 30% Hulk 30%

You are mild-mannered, good, strong and you love to help others.

Click here to take the Superhero Personality Test

Joe wanted me to take these fun tests so here goes.
How democrat am I?

You Are 4% Democrat

If you have anything in common with the Democrat party, it's by sheer chance. You're a staunch conservative, and nothing is going to change that!

How Democrat Are You?

How republican am I?

You Are 76% Republican

You have a good deal of elephant running through your blood, and you're proud to be conservative. You don't fit every Republican stereotype, but you definitely belong in the Republican party.

How Republican Are You?

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30 pounds gone for GOOD!!

I am now out of the 280's for good. I am excited about that. My clothes are pretty baggy on me, yet I don't dare try on anything smaller. I don't feel any different yet, and I don't see a difference except in my clothes. Other people say that they can see a difference.

I have started going to the gym and it does feel good. I did a few upper body weights, and was sore the next day. I have been working through things with the head hunger, it brings up a lot of feelings, some that I don't want to deal with.

I met with my surgeon the other day and he said everything looked great. I haven't had any problems after surgery, and hopefully don't have any.

Have a great relaxing Sunday afternoon.

The July Heat

It has hit us. I can't believe it is already July. It is going to be a fun month.
The 4th of July !!!!
Then we have a Family Reunion.
Our 13th Anniversary
24th of July

This is the fun of summer! I am going to try not to miss all the fun summer food. :( I know that I can do this. Losing 28 pounds is a great reward.

I have been frustrated for not getting my walks in everyday. I have been very, very tired, but that is not an excuse anymore. Tonight I walked home from my parents with my kids. Which is a little over 1 mile. I was tired afterwards, but happy that I did it.

Hope you all have a great 4th of July and go out and celebrate our great Nation. Be grateful everyday for everything you have!

Down 26.4 pounds!!

That is almost a Mary. :) I have had some good days. We had a double baby shower for two of my nieces on Monday. One is due in August and the other in October. It was a little hard to be there, but I survived. I would have been due right between them in September. I miss my little one, but feel that it happened for a reason and that I will see my baby again.

My sister had also made a ice cream sandwich cake that looked sooo sooo good. I just drooled over my Moms. :) But I survived without having any of it. It has been 3 weeks since my surgery and I have lost 26.4 pounds. I have to think of that when I am having a hard time. One of the draw backs that I am having right now, is that I have no energy. I have been doing more in the house (as in dreaded housework) than I was, so I am using more energy. I have yet to make it to the gym. But Mom and I are going to start on Monday. So we will see if that will give me more energy. Also it has been really hot outside, which drains my energy.

I went out with some friends the other night and had a great time. We went to eat at Cafe Villa (I think that is the name of it) and my friend DramaMomma shared some pulled bbq pork and beans for $3.50 and didn't even eat half of it. It tasted great and stayed down :) I am wanting to go back and get more. That is the cheapest meal that I have had at a restaurant, especially since she paid for it. :) (Thanks DM!!) I was a little afraid of go out to eat, but had a great time with great friends.

Saturday Fun!

We had a great day as a family. We went and saw 'Evan Almighty', which is a great movie. I recommend it to everyone. It has such a great feeling to it. Joe and Bobby both really liked it too, Bobby was laughing a lot. Mary had a hard time sitting still, but eventually fell asleep. The movie reminds you to have faith in God, which we all need reminding.

I have been having a better time handling things. I still have head cravings, but I just remind myself of why I am doing this. The mind is a powerful thing, even though you know that you don't want that candy or treat, your mind keeps on telling you that you need it or that it won't hurt. In my case it will hurt :) by making me sick, by not losing the weight and I do not need it. Food is everywhere, everywhere I turn, every other thought I have is about food. Every special occasion is celebrated with food, every sad occasion there is food. If your having a hard time in life, people bring you food, or tell you that chocolate will solve your problems. Comfort food is in all the commercials, telling you that you have to have this drink or food to be happy. I have had all of it, and I can attest that it will not make you happy in the long run. Just like any drug or alcohol, it will make you feel good for a little while. That is why people go back to it. I believe food is the largest addiction that there is. The diet industry is one of the largest money makers that there is, and most of them will work for a short amount of time. I do believe that Weight Watchers is one of the best out there. They do focus on the emotional part of losing weight. It just was not enough to keep me from cheating. I would sabotage myself all the time. I would have a great week and then rationalize that I could have more the next week.

The surgery tool is giving me the time that I need to work out all those addictive behaviors with food. I now only eat to live and not live to eat. I have been to parties and to movies since the surgery and I still crave those foods, but I know that they are not worth it. It is not worth my health and my happiness. It is not worth it for that small amount of satisfaction that will come from food.

I am starting to get back into normal life now, I do have a little more energy than I had a week or two ago. My clothes are starting to be baggy, not yet big enough to go to the next size down, but soon. I will be starting back to the gym on Monday, so I am looking forward to that.

I am blessed to have so many friends and family supporting me in this adventure. It will be a fun one. It will be hard along the way, but so worth it. I am looking forward to being active with my children and family.

Some of the healthy life styles that I am adopting are:
Not eating after 7pm. (have been doing this)
Drinking at least 64oz of water. (I have been doing about 100oz or more)
Getting 8 hours of sleep. (still working on this)
Walking daily (working on increasing this)

I should get to bed now so I can get enough sleep for church in the morning.
Thank you all for listening, it helps more than you know!

I have been having a very difficult time the last few days. Emotionally I am not dealing with things good. Mainly when it comes to my kids. They are so full of energy and I have none. I am feeling better physically, but still can not do a whole lot. When the kids acted up, I would just get something to eat. Now I can't do that, I actually have to deal with it. I miss my old friend. I read this on someones blog and I thought, this is exactly how I feel. Go here to read it.
http://shrinkingmom.clubmom.com/amazing_shrinking_mom/2006/06/my_backstabbing.html
Different situations, same emotions. But as I got on the scale this morning, it did feel good when I saw that I was down 22.2 pounds. I just have to think that it will get better with time, as I lose more I will gain more energy.

I just need to look at the positives with my kids and my life. To look at my blessings. I will go for now. I need to do something with my kids to let them play. Thanks for listening.

My two Superheros

They have a lot of fun pretending to be superheros. Mary always says batman to the rescue.